hidden dreams

looking through the window not allowed to play
crippling pain has taken my outside play away
i run in my head with long strides i fly
i twist and turn in mid air in my despair
i observe those things i never deserved
i must have done something wrong
hurt someone or deserted god almighty
to be punished like this in my cell
i cant fail anymore or i'll lose everything
oh the guilt damn this pain
my prison is my mind not my body
life is never found in observation
why did this take so long to learn
how did you find this life in me
when everyone else failed
where did you find me
i was hiding in my words
afraid to be me
afraid really fly